The Wandering Minds
The Journals
The Apostate of
Repent! Taubat!... you must return to your Lord! So says the defenders of the Islamic faith.
Those were the words they hurled at me. Most often I would just ignore. Why should I in the first place? I love to say: I am the murtad one… I am the apostate of Islam and I’m proud of it… just as I’ve heard it many times coming from the Muslim, but I will not do so. What there is to be proud of? I am who I am…this is what I have become… I do what I have to do….at this moment in time; this is the right thing to do and my main concern is to continue with this journey of mine peacefully. Islam has no place anymore as far as I’m concern. I have left it far behind... Miles behind and I have no intention of going back and making claims to it. There are no regrets. If you’re an Islamist, and you find my confession disturbing, then please don’t come here. I do not invite you here. Go somewhere and save yourself from me. Leave me alone … if you try to stop me or force me through whatever means to ever go back to that enclave call Islam, I will retaliate. I will fight back. I do not choose to be born as a Muslim and I detest being force to remain in a faith I have no faith in anymore. If you want to remain as a Muslim for the rest of your life and you are happy then that is your own choice but I do not and I will not.   Many has called me a "weaklings" and "traitor". Why? Because I choose not to be a spiritual slave? I create this page as a platform for me to voice out my opinion on certain issues that are of interest to me. This is one of the many path I have taken and even though I have move on, I like to go back and explore to find an understanding. If you find it hard to understand my action that is your issue you need to work on. I am not here to convince nor to confuse you. I am who I am and this is what I have become, and I am happy with it. I know I am right in my own way.
September 2009